DeEpy BoiA small world of mine
Friday, January 12, 2007


hey friends i am back from india..at last i found some time to update my blog..

so how to describe india..

it was a moment wen a playful boi called deepy saw the real world

moments tat he experince there realli changed his life n the way he saw life..

in india wen i first wen there beside the dirty air in delhi till the noisy road..i felt i am out of the comfort of singapore..missed my mom alot cause the previous nite i cried like a small boi cause i realli didnt wanted to leave her n go...

resposibilites were alot..had to look after both my sister n cousin sister..cause the streets there r not as safe back here..

first everything was great...cause u know being in india makes u feel so damm rich..i mean i could afford lots of stuff..eat as much as i wan..cause money was not a problem there..

but in life only happiness doesnt last..

the train ride to lucknow was the first challange i had to face..i had to make sure all the baggage were properly placed n no one comes n snatch it away..

then the biggest moment of my life came..wen i came to lucknow first we rested at the hotel..was a ok place la..everyone was in the same rOom..so was CoOl..

then the van came to bring me to the orphange...first i tot it be just a normal experince but i was so damm wrong..the moments the kids saw me..they came runnin to me..not to disturb me but to help me carry the things tat i cried in my hand..they were"bhaiya come i help u...wif a innocent smile n sparklin eyes..."

my heart just stopped for few moments lookin at how they welcomed me..how they came n hug me..first i tot they were like u know dirty nvr bath somesort..but then the way they hug me i can fell how much i meant to them..by comin there to c them was a big happiness for them..

once i get close to some of the kids life realli was great..i felt so damm attach to them..felt i knew them since they were born..one be hangin at the hand..one from behind be huggin me one be sleepin on my lab..they way i felt i was a father to all of them...

this kids didnt had parents..but yet they put their sorrow behinds n were smilin n dancin..realise tat many times in life i make my sorrow the biggest issue to be sad..but here people make the small happiness their biggest joy..

soon days passed..n i became so attach to them..their stories melt my heart..tears roll down..it shake me..like one example..i asked whr is ur dad?? he passed away..so i ask whr is ur mom..oh she couldnt feed me so i run away from home to earn for myself so tat wen i go back i can give my mom alot of food..age of the kid was only 5 years old..imagine a 5 year old boi who run away so tat he can give his mom a better future..sold waterbottles at railway to earn a livin..search rushbin to find for rice grains to eat..slept on the streets under the street light....

thinkin of this..reali make me imagine..wish i could give my mom the happiness she deserve..instead she gets all the lie from me wen ever i wan to go out n enjoy....

then it was time to leave the kids..tears just poured n thier tiny hand wave at me as i took the van back to my hotel..i had spent abt 4 days wif them..tat 4 days felt like a lifetime for me..reali hurt alot cause i couldnt give my best..

soon their tiny hands faded in the darkness n i was back..tat nite i couldnt sleep..next day i had to catch a bus to the village...their smiles ran in my mind..their sorrow burnt my heart..but i couldnt do anything..just witness all the sufferin this kids go through...

soon i took a 10 hours journey bus to the village..i saw the beautiful india in the bus..as people walk down the street..farmers grew their food...students returnin back home from skol..felt tat everyone was my own..nvr did i feel people were figthin amoung themself to reach first but they walk hand in hand so tat they all be first in life..

i wen to one of the temple in ajodhya...ram temple..realli was difficuilt to just c god statue..but wen i saw...i was woh..god is so beautiful...

at nite fall i reach the village..the first thing tat caught my eyes were the spacklin stars glowin in the darkness..the moon beamin n givin thousand of people a source of light at nite..

in the village itself were many kids..

did lots of stuff in the village..like eatin sugarcane..walkin in the farms...seein cow being milked..eatin dhal n bhaat..life was so fun..nvr did i feel any stress..nvr did i feel i had to rush..a cup of tea realli brightens the day..at nite there was campfire..as everyone chewed their food infront of the blazin fire..


i wen to meet my relatives...even gave a speech to alot of students in this univ..i told them one thing tat i can nvr forget.."hey friend now there r 100 kids who r stayin in orhanage home..only 3 people r there to give them love..the biggest joy u can give this kids is a smile on their face..they need love n a feelin tat everyone loves them alot..if u people all come out..n give every child attention meanin hundred kids wif hunderd volenteers..u wont only give a smile on their faces..but u get a memory tat will be captured in ur heart..which will be remebered till ur last breath..."

seriously i was realli honored to given this chance to tok to so many people...

then i wen to my aunties house..she feeded us by her hand..saw my grandfather who the first thing told me tat he has found for me a bride..but was so happy to c him smile...

in life there r many moments wen u c ur love one after long period of time..u may not get the chance to spent time wif them..but their faces will be captured in the heart wif a smile on their face..cause u know this r the people who can make u smile wen the whole world turns against u...

time flew beri fast..i wen to a city in gourkpur..the kids here were extremly lovin as the one i met in lucknow..for example i gave a kid a watercolour paint..cause he was a talented guy who can paint well..he was so touched by my gift tat he stayed up the whole nite to do paintin for me..he said this..maybe in few days time u will leave..but this paintin will be wif u..u may forget me but u wont forget this paintin..wenever u c this..u will know who u gave so much of love tat that person life has been filled wif happiness..realli i was so touched..n kept his paintin close to my heart..i said tat i may forget myself but i wont forget u..cause u have taught me the meanin of love..maybe in life if i get the chance again..i shall come n c u again..but always remeber..tat wenever my heart beats it says that u r fine..

reali cant express the feelin this kids gave me..

wen i had to leave them for delhi...was reali heartbrokin..many stories were told to me by them..the feelin no one can exprince cause its a moment whr both happiness n sorrow comes at the same time..

happiness tat u gave love n a smile on their face but sorrow u cant stay to be wif them forever..

i travel back to delhi..long journey..

this time wen shoppin..k was great..but the next day things tat happen was a moment tat made me feel so gifted...

i wen to this new orphange in delhi made in the most rural area..whr people dun have proper cloths or food..

the faces were veri scary..all starin at me as i walk to their area..but their stories were just shockin..met a gurl who was just 18 but who had 3 kids..can u belive tat...

walk down the road saw a old woment covered wif flys all over her face..someone wispered in my ears..she gonna die in a week time cause she has no one to look after her..

lots of things i saw there tat realli change my idea of life..

i was greatful god gave me this chance to come n meet all this wonderful people in india..but there always remaind one question in my mind..wat did i do tat god gave me such a wonderful life wif such lovin parents..

if i get the chance..i wish to bring a smile on all those faces in india.. who need love..

thx u india..i may not be there..but the memories tat i have gotten from there..will nvr be earsed..its in my soul which will travel wif me even after i die...


deepy boi

ALONE IN THIS WORLD..wish u always could be wif me... 12:51 AM